Today is the 31st December 2008 . It's officially the last day of year 2008 . Er jie is off to Marina Bay for the count down . My dear man friend is at his friend's house for Mahjong, but i'm fine with it . =) . Since he already agreed to play Mahjong with them, i don't want him to cancel things out last minute just because of me . Although . . . i'm really feeling lonely . . . moody and wanna club tonight . 

Wilson asked me out again, not mentioning that he already failed serveral times . But, i can't, because i know that my sweet heart would be unhappy . Never mind about that . I was so in the mood for the new year this morning, but then i told myself it's gonna be nothing, so i felt as if it's any other normal day . Now, at this time, 11.10pm, sms-es are all coming in, wishing me good for the coming year, makes me wanna party too . =/ . 

Wentta have my hair trimmed this afternoon instead of highlighting it white . Shirley was right, attachment is gonna be up soon, if i highlight my hair white, i'll have to/must make it black again soon . So just trimming and gonna buy boxes and dye on my own again then .

Well, i'm gonna tune in to Lush99.5fm now and have some XO . Guys and girls, ladies and gentlemen, have a good and happy new year . Best of the best wishes to everyone . 

And to you . . . i don't hate you for what you did . In fact, i expected it . I know how it is to be felt when you don't have what everyone else is having . I've been through this remember ? Remember how i was slapped across the face by Er jie for wanting to buy the phone from Zhen ? To me, having a phone is like wearing spectacles . When i first reported for short-sighted, i wanted to wear a spectacle so much . And i got it, but after long, i found out that i couldn't get rid of it, even if i really hate it . I'm so fine with going phone-less now, it's people around me that can't bear the consequences of me not having a cellphone . Like i said, i didn't meant that i want you outta this house, but please please take into consideration the cost of everything now . You're my sister, blood sister, the sister i'm closiest to, the sister that when we were young, would not sleep in the night, but continue playing games in the dark, whispered secrets and cried together . I don't wanna tell you certain things now because i felt that it doesn't make sense to you now because you're still young . All i know is, mom and dad really shouldn't be called assholes, old man or whatever other things you might think of . You can be angry, but know your limits with the temper releasing . Everyone make mistakes, so do you and me, for those mistakes that can't be tolerated, don't let it happen for more than three times . Once, twice, thrice, what comes next for most of the people ? Answer is give up . You're always throwing temper, until people got sick of it, so even if you're on the verge of breaking down, people wouldn't take it seriously because they're numb to your temper . I'm not afraid to say, i used to be like you, thinking that no one understands me . Yes, no one understands you, only you yourself understands you, no one else . No one would know what you wanna do next, no one would know why are you doing certain things, because it's you and not them . All i'm trying to say is, look on the bright side, i want my driving license as much as you want your handphone, but we'll just have to bear with it and be positive . If it's meant to be, forgive and forget . =)